hello captive.

Jesus replied, "I tell you the truth, everyone who sins is a slave to sin. Now a slave has no permanent place in the family, but a son belongs to it forever. So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.

John 8:34-36

this is something i need to be reminded of on an almost constant basis. it seems rather pathetic when i think about it that i have to reminded of my freedom and the fact that i no longer exist as a slave to anything but my eventual righteousness...

i don't devote enough of myself to the righteousness that i say i pursue, which reminds me of another verse:

But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with them.

2 Timothy 3:1-5


i have nothing more to say, unless you count my future actions as words (which you hardly could because they should speak much louder)

hello free.

spectators sport

hello unloved.

today i sat on the sidelines of my own life and watched. and hated it.

i have no excuse. i have no reason.

a permanent proof of a temporary existence

hello forgotten.

recently i've been thinking/praying a lot about a calling that's existed for a while as embers exist long after a fire has gone out. however, these particular embers were fortunate enough to catch a gust of wind strong enough to reignite they're almost extinguished dying selves. we'll go ahead and call that gust of wind mexico, for sake of clarity. it's interesting to me how sometimes things fall (whether together or apart) in perfect time with our needs. God is amazing like that i suppose. He really is with us, walking alongside. i think that He truely gets excited (probably more so than us) when we are walking with Him, and things begin happen. great things.

i suppose it's really no mystery at all when you can see all of time in a single glance, but for me... from where i'm standing (in the middle of the trees that have yet to become a forest to me) i stand amazed.

as for me and the next __+ years, i will be serving the one who sees infinitely more than me, who sees not only the the forest, but the land in which the forest lies, and the work on which the land lies... and the universe in which the planet lies... and everything outside of that.

it seems like a good idea to me at least



"Oh, doubters, let's go down... let's go down, won't you come on down?
Oh, doubters, let's go down... down to the river to pray.
'Oh, but I'm so small I can barely be seen... how can this great love be inside of me?'
Look at your eyes.... they're small in size, but they see enormous things."
-mewithoutYou "four word letter pt.2"

it's funny how the path we take leads us to the destination we arrive at.




sometimes going back in time and smacking myself seems like the best option

other times continuing is the best.




"forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead"
-philippians 3:13b


and to a certain (potential) reader out there: yes. i miss you and like you and yes. yesyesyesyes.

goodnight gentle love

it's days like today

that make you realize that everything is out of your control

and you can't help but think "i'm completely ok with all of this"

today should be good. this large low pressure system promises a lot of rain, which i gotta say, i'm completely okay with. work at the elementary school was canceled, again, okay with it. cherry will be rough tonight because of a sore throat.

and now to take a hard look at what defines me, and what i let influence me.


sometimes i wonder why i am where i am. then i look around.. what i carry with me, what i hold on to, what i let go of

suddenly where i am makes sense. scary