today should be good. this large low pressure system promises a lot of rain, which i gotta say, i'm completely okay with. work at the elementary school was canceled, again, okay with it. cherry will be rough tonight because of a sore throat.

and now to take a hard look at what defines me, and what i let influence me.


sometimes i wonder why i am where i am. then i look around.. what i carry with me, what i hold on to, what i let go of

suddenly where i am makes sense. scary

oh the many ways i'm silenced by the plank in my own eye.

glory.

after arriving home last night a flash in the sky caught my eye.
i was lying down on my driveway looking up at the clouds above.

they were soaked red from light pollution and were making haste across the sky. i thought "how beautiful is tonight? look at this glorious sky"

then the flash happened again. a giant cloud that took up most of the horizon i could keep in my periphery was unveiled from the night be a great flash of lightning. the immensity of the cloud revealed by it's own glory.
then as quick as it could be seen, it disappeared again into the dark.

the longer it was that i looked for this cloud and the more the lightning shown it, the easier it was to see.


How can i live for myself and for Christ?
i can't.

"He must become greater; I must become less." john 3:30



the longer we look at Christ the more revealed he is to us.

single minded

oh that i may gaze upon your beauty oh Lord



that i may see your holy face



that i may know you in an intimate way



and follow after you all of my days

i am nothing, Christ is everything.
the very lips that spoke the entirety of the cosmos into existence speaks to our hearts, romancing and pursuing us
how is that not worth surrendering your life?
honestly i can't tell you. but yet i decide, almost daily, that it isn't.


i am wrong.

Lilly pads are great for hopping

Bags and sandals great for shopping

And a lollipop to make the day go by

All the while my mind not stopping

All my hopes make me feel like popping

Just don’t let the glass half fullers cry

Till tonight when stars and clouds collide

And friends will all laugh in stride

Promises ending in a lie

When morning dawn does soon break

And movement for our hearts sake

The light of sky causes birds to fly

The afternoon shall kiss the evening

Segueing to steady bleeding

All beneath the heavy laden sky

The cycle continues it’s beating

Blinks begin slowly fleeting

As another day passes by

Filly pages with our lives

Watching them read at the end of time

All the while only asking “why?”

not the complete transcript, but still good, haha

it's all going to be ok
it's all going to be ok
it's all going to be ok
it's all going to be ok