life in the now

live for the present. but what is the present other than short term memory? there are moments ahead and moments behind but it is near impossible to catch one now...or now... things move to the past far too quickly.

perhaps the 'now' is just a collective imagination held by all who either dread the future or regret the past.

but wouldn't this moment-only lifestyle preclude you from what you need as a human? (that being memories/knowledge/wisdom and aspirations/hopes/dreams)

what if you cherish the past and/or look forward to the future?

i guess the point of present-focus is to get people to not focus on their dread of the 'yet to' and their dissatisfaction with the 'has already'

but, perhaps, misses this mark.

this entry really has no point.

i dream far too much.

i like it.

to something far beyond myself

"Your name is glorious, glorious

Your love is changing us, calling us

to worship in spirit and in truth as all creation returns to you"

hello forgetful.

often times i wait for my heart to be where i'm going, rather than going there and taking my heart along.

not realizing the whole time that my heart is a polestar, pointing me to exactly what i find important.

Thank God that grace resounds off of our weakness and that his power is made perfect in my weakness.

i really wish i knew how to quiet my mind.

hello unknown.

honestly, when i think about the future i feel like i've been in a room with a sleeping lion for 8 hours; i know it's going to wake up at any moment.

and i'm wearing a shirt that smells like meat.

thank God i'm not the first.

"My God sent his angel, and he shut the mouths of the lions"

Daniel 6:22a

i don't know why i continue to worry

it's amazing how weeks of deliberation can lead to nothing

but then, a single moment can change everything.

it's not that i now know, it's that i'm okay with not.

i realized tonight that i have a tendency to turn points into rays; that i expect individual moments to span out into eternity. by this i am simply referring to my tendency to expect my current circumstance to remain indefinitely. for example: when you're sick and you don't remember what it's like to feel okay. or, when feeling really depressed it's easy to forget happiness.

i suppose i have a longing for the eternal, but what i fail to realize is that i'm following the eternal.

how insulting that must be; going to see God's glory and stopping to marvel at a colorful pebble i've found along the way.

what a fool.